Saturday, January 7, 2012

First Saturday of 2012

The new year is a week old.

My daughter and her little fam are safely back home in TN. New beginnings for them as her hubby starts a new job on Monday. Changes are not easy to take sometimes. The what-ifs can be scary.

So far this year I have not accomplished anything. Isnt' that sad? Depression, sickness, low vit. D., fibro pain, circumstances that need changing that I really have not control over. So what do I do? I shut down. I withdraw. That's not good. I know. I'm trying. But sometimes it's hard to know where to even start.
One thing for sure is to cut back on the overload of sugars I've been eating. And then my hubby brings home 4 (yes! 4 ) bags of Goetz Caramel Creams!  Do you know how much I love these things? I now have a jar of them sitting on my table beside my chair where my ever-widening rump has been sitting the majority of the past week. sigh. So that jar will be going into the cabinet in the kitchen. Out of my sight.
Another sign of too much sugars is my excema is flaring bad. Of course that can be caused by stress as well.
Classes start back next week. It's going to be a busy semester but will be my last!!! Except for a couple classes in the summer.
I've got to get myself together before it ends! How am I going to find a job in the shape I'm in?
Standing (sitting) still is not going to get me out of this hole. It's starting to get dark down here.

3 comments:

Karen Twombly said...

Patty, I am praying for you!! I am sorry you are struggling so... Your last semester...wow!! Seems like just yesterday you were starting out with classes and now you are nearly done!! :)

Debra said...

Oh my, the sugar test! I'm still going through that one and I, too, have a husband who will bring home exactly what I'm trying to avoid. sigh. But! Keep praying and believing and leaning on God and staying as positive as you can-- that's what I keep telling myself. Slowly my husband has gotten the idea that I'm trying to avoid sugar, but still, whenever he heads out of the house I tell him, "And don't bring home anything with sugar for me!" It helps for me to be clear like that and he only slips up sometimes now. :) Do all you can and God will do what you can't--Joyce Meyer says that often. Do you watch her online? I can't even explain how much her teachings have helped me. Hang in there, ok? ... Debra

Jen said...

Just stopping in and letting you know that I am praying for you!